Every thought you have sleeps in your blood.
Rational, coagulated states of living.
And every time you swallow world and mud,
I feel like I’m getting away with stealing.
Every secret you keep prays for a flood.
Broken gates with intense fear of pain.
And every time you taste the blood,
You annihilate the human strain.
Let’s be weird together,
Share some gum
And spit it out.
I want nothings,
I want doubt.
Share a shower,
Share some food,
Make me feel misunderstood.
Take a blanket,
Cover us.
Hold me in your arms because…
Two or three things I know about you.
You’re, altogether, eight,
With 5, the dog,
Nneka, the singer,
Your intricate ways
And weird suspense,
Full of questionable humor and intense.
What I feel listening to „My Blood” by Ellie Goulding…
*air in*
That feeling that doesn’t go away just did – heavy
And I walked a thousand miles to prove it – tired and alone
And I’m caught in the crossfire of my own thoughts – I never know what to do
The color of my blood is all I see on the rocks – death
As you sail from me – silence
Alarms will ring for eternity – destruction
The waves will break every chain on me – I feel like I’m ripped apart
My bones will bleach – time passes, and I am still dead
My flesh will flee – I am evanescent
So help my lifeless frame to breathe – breathing is hard
And God knows I’m not dying but I bleed now – God cannot save me now
And God knows it’s the only way to heal now – God won’t save me now
With all the blood I lost with you – I am lifeless and torn apart
It drowns the love I thought I knew – but even if I’m all drained, this helps me heal myself
The lost dreams are buried in my sleep for him – I can only see you in my dreams
And this was the ecstasy of a love forgotten – love was, maybe, just an illusion
And I’m thrown in the gunfire of empty bullets – I was defenseless and alone
And my blood is all I see – I see myself with different eyes
As you steal my soul from me – empty and alone
Alarms will ring for eternity
The waves will break every chain on me
And God knows I’m not dying but I bleed now
And God knows it’s the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost with you
It drowns the love I thought I knew
Ohhh, ohh oh [x6]
And God knows I’m not dying but I bleed now
And God knows it’s the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost with you
It drowns the love I thought I knew
And God knows I’m not dying but I bleed now
And God knows it’s the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost with you
It drowns the love I thought I knew
*air out*
This is music for people who feel pain. People who love pain. People who need it to move on. I am those people. Sorry for the analysis.