Last Train

This was the last train
For things to be said,
For things that have remained
To be left unentertained.
There’s no reason for me to speak my mind,
I missed it, the train and the terrain,
And now I’m taking a random bus.
E tot ce mi-a rămas.
This was the last train,
And now I’m looking for different stations,
And temptations.
This is the first bus
To somewhere new,
And half in light, and half in dark,
Is where I start.

what’s left

what’s left of lovers,
hugs in disguise,
thinking of monsters
but we’re none the wise
and while they keep struggling,
for better or worse,
like old tired deities
from cities of norse,
what’s left of friends,
shambles in truth,
wasted memories
of the dangerous youth
that we’ve both survived
and acknowledged and thrived.
what’s left of hearts,
and stare.


We lock eyes
in binary lies,
in nights and days,
and kings and queens,
indifferent to the noise,
we always choose
between black and white,
forgetting to grow
between spaces,
so focused on the aces,
and not remembering
how hard is to know
to fight the darkness,
but to resist the light,
to move between spaces
of easy harshness
and such heavy light.
We live between
heavens and hells.
But with all the bells,
i can promise you,
the inbetween is yours to take.

The Things I Wanted

Scattered and disturbed,
Like feathers lost by birds
In empty suburbs,
The things I wanted are the things I am.
The mirror stares at me,
All buttons undone,
Misery welcome,
And all the things I wanted are the things I am.
Through all the pain, discarded and forgotten,
Between empty cups of coffee,
Half eaten sandwiches and lost words,
All of the things that I wanted are the things that I am.

But wait, says desperation,
You’re not made of things,
You’re made of this
Gorgeous spectacular feeling
Of being a being.
You’re made of star dust
And metal rust,
You’re made of hope and made of trust.
You’re made up empty and I must
Admit that filling the feeling
Was a bust.

lockdown syndrome

oh, what a year this has been,
as if this ocean kept trembling,
moving, shaking,
and i was just this piece in the middle of nowhere,
with no control over other people’s bodies.
their thoughts, their minds,
their hugs and their kisses,
all lost, between my thoughts
and my lack of mind,
between our arms there’s only distance,
and no one is clingy now,
because how can we cling to each other
when all we have is ourselves?
the clocks are static, but the dates keep moving on,
and we’re trying to survive,
we’re trying to keep everyone alive,
and they try to keep their finances alive.
no one knows what they’re doing,
but they do know what we’re doing,
and it’s clear by now that no one is doing the right thing.
the shifts are both massive and small,
just like the ticks and the tocks,
i used to think i have it all,
but what a time to be alive.
i keep hiding behind locks,
transported from bed to desk,
from dreaming of you to a nightmare so grotesque,
where people sneeze on me and hug me.
oh, what a year this has been.