pacate

adun salbatice cuvinte,
si tot ce am acum in minte
e intrebarea daca el ma minte
cat eu stau si-l astept cuminte.
adun si rasuflari pierdute,
si nu mai are cine sa le-asculte
daca are sau nu cine sa m-ajute,
intre cafele cu arome de cucute.
adun tresariri ciudate,
si ceasul cand de miez de noapte bate
adu-ti aminte, dragul meu, ca sapte
sunt si-amare virtuti, si dulci pacate.

resilience

you can bend me,
but not break me,
mold me into cups so i can fit,
soon i’ll be spilling my guts outside of it,
and you’ll be left with overflowing rage.
you can stretch me,
but not break me,
pull at my insides from one corner to another,
soon i’ll be covering the whole world with wonder,
and you’ll be stuck underneath.
you can compress me,
but not break me,
squeeze my skull into my other bones,
soon i’ll have a river of blood close,
and you’ll get to drown in it.
my name is resilience,
that’s why you can’t break me.
even if you kill me,
my spirit will take me
away from this earth and into the minds
of people willing to listen this time.

eternally

i’m just a tiny spec of soul,
forgotten in this rotten world,
i smell of lie and lies and i am whole,
with all my golden treasures and my heart purled,
i give you life and i give you trust,
and if you must,
i’ll give you me,
eternally.

heartbeat

te-am cautat. nu te-am gasit,
dar tot ce nu am simtit
se rascoleste de la sine-n
mine
si cauta tot felul de poteci ascunse,
iar eu n-am decat feliile de paine unse
cu unt, untura, margarina,
si inima mea-i doar terina.
ascund si fierb in ea
imaginatiuni traite,
dar mereu de altii,
ascund si fierb in ea
ganduri nedeslusite,
traite doar de altii,
iar eu am in mine viteze nebanuite,
ganduri neobosite,
creiere pe repeat si sentimente mii.
sunt toata ghem – senzatii, nebunii…

I’m trying to put it all back together.
I’ve got a story and I’m trying to tell it right.
I got the kerosene and a desire.
I’m trying to start a flame in the heart of the night

Gandeam

Gandeam in culori,
pierduta in nori,
si stii si tu prea bine ce tare ma dori
cand tot ce respiri
e praf de iubiri,
uitat-ai tu oare
de tot ce-i sub soare?
Gandeam ca e bine,
stand langa tine,
urmand cu un deget stingher de la mine
un trup nestatornic.
Esti un datornic!
Degraba si multa dobanda.
Inima ta e prea mica s-ascunda.
Gandeam doar in linii,
in cercuri. Strainii
tot imi spuneau ca-i departe, sovinii
spuneau si ei cuvinte desarte,
dar fara vorbe si valuri sparte,
se-aduna pe plaja,
si-mi stau de straja
doar frici nenumite.
Mi-e dor de iubite.

stiu minciuni

minciuni despre cafele ude,
si nu e nimeni sa m-asculte,
si nu e nimeni fara nume,
iar lumea asta n-are nume.
si stiu ca sunt o redundanta,
in ochii tai sunt o sectanta,
si-mi place cand ma minti frumos,
cand lingi noroiul de pe jos.
minciuni de suflet cald si bun,
eu nu stiu de unde te adun,
nu stiu cand binele e rau,
si astazi totul e al tau.
si stiu ca n-am nimic a spune,
stiu ca pamantul meu nu are nume,
stiu ca tot ce-am nascut mai ieri in tine
e bine, dar nu vine de la mine.

Can You Handle Me?!

Sometimes I feel like I am feeling too much, sometimes I feel like I am thinking too much. There’s never enough of one kind in me, and there’s always something that’s missing deep down inside. I’m not sure if all these feelings and all these thoughts are what I am supposed to live right now, but they are the only thing I have for myself, so I try to get by.

I try to get by past the indifference and past the heartache, past the people that hurt me, past the people that weren’t honest. Past all of those who didn’t have the balls to say things to my face, and past those who had the balls to say something mean and gratuitous, without a real base.

I try to get by past the people who take „please, forgive me” for granted, as they take me for granted. Past the people who think that, if I ever felt something towards them, that feeling will still be here forever and they can play that card anytime they wish.

I try to feel, without feeling too much, and I try to think, without overthinking. But this is all I am good at – overzealous feeling coupled with a big paranoid brain that never sleeps. And I can handle that, but can you handle me?!